What do I do now?

I’ve officially started Maternity leave, with 12 weeks to go before our little girl arrives. Many will say this is too early, you don’t need that much time, you are still able to work.

Truthfully, yes I could potentially still continue full time with 3 months left to go but in my personal situation I have chosen to “quit while I’m ahead” as they say.

Being is such a demanding and high pressure role, I needed to focus on baby’s health and my own for that matter. The stress I was constantly under wasn’t good for any of us. This including dad, who had to listen to my rants daily.

Originally I had set a time to start maternity somewhere much closer to the due date, it worked financially and I had a more stable view of where we would be leading up to the arrival.

Things don’t always turn out the way you planned and that’s okay. It took me a while to get my head round the fact I was finishing earlier than anticipated, I went through so many different emotions the first few days. I was angry at myself, worrying what people would think or say and I was most definitely anxious about how we would cope money wise.

All of these stresses seemed so minimal on the first day of maternity, I sat down to write a list, I wanted to organise my time efficiently and prepare as best I could. Once I saw everything written on paper I suddenly felt a wave of relief that I had time. Something I had overlooked with all the worrying.

This list has slowly become the pinnacle of my time spent already, adding to it at every thought and crossing off tasks day by day.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, it doesn’t matter what people think or say of your decision. It’s all down to you and you only.

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