Father’s Day

So this day is hard for me, I lost my father 9 years ago from a sudden heart attack.

Throughout my childhood, he wasn’t always the best dad if I’m completely honest with you. He drank a lot, was out until early hours of the morning most nights and had many anger issues. However, the times I like to remember, the good times overweigh the latter.

This year, with the arrival of a baby on the way, it seems even harder to come to terms with the fact he’s not here. Of course, some days are easier than others and it’s always in the back of my mind whatever I’m doing.

Whether hormones are playing with my emotions or it’s coming to the realisation I’m slowly becoming a fully independent adult (who would have thought it) that I need my own parents more than I have in past years.

Taking a moment to remember my dear brother who passed just two years after my father, it’s given me a huge sense of appreciation for my partner.

Having two of my biggest male role models taken away, I am truly filled with gratitude that this man is by my side. And this year marks the start of a new feeling of happiness that fathers day will bring for us.

Remembering those that aren’t with us always, but also allowing my mind to feel warmth and contentment on this day.

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